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Hopeless Shit vs Hope…For Now…Until That Day

Hopeless Shit vs Hope…For Now…Until That Day

The Preface of Being Pissed Off

Yesterday I was driving home from Omaha and reflecting on all the good meetings I had the past couple days at the hospitals I call on. What I didn’t expect was later that evening to be sitting in my living room, holding a glass of bourbon (well that’s always expected 😉) and typing out a post while crying my eyes out over a song. I had an overwhelming feeling of sadness and hopelessness from something I believe has been stolen from my sons. 

I was feeling heartbroken and pissed off like I’ve never felt before at the hollow bill of theological goods churches sell about God.* Thankfully from all the shit that happened at churches I attended in Little Rock I’m not sold out to allowing a church feed beliefs into me. Over the past 5 years I’ve had a paradigm shift in a lot of my religious beliefs and my view on the Bible. Don’t worry I’m not jaded with God, just the Church. {Thankfully we’ve found a great church here in Olathe that helps me grounded.}

The Song

This song, “When Your Kingdom Comes” by The Silver Pages (link below) is continually punching me in the gut. It’s hard to listen to and not just cry. I’m talking a serious ugly cry like lay night. I’m not kidding I was making noises I’ve never heard from me. It was like a duck being stepped on slowly. 😜

When I heard the song on the drive home from Omaha last night it immediately made me tear up.

The Hopeless Shit

With all the horrible, gut wrenching, hopeless shit that goes on in this world…for me personally it’s dealing with the effects of Alzheimer’s on my Mom, knowing my mom isn’t able to enjoy and love on my amazing sons like she would if Alzheimer’s hadn’t taken her beautiful mind and spirit away…for those who are dealing with their children suffering in some manner, cancer, losing loved ones, having to bury your own child, divorce, abuse, some assholes valuing a gorilla more than a child’s life (I honestly don’t give a fuck if you’re offended by me saying that…did you miss the part about my Mom has Alzheimer’s? That she doesn’t recognize me, her son. Do you think I care if you’re offended about what I said about a gorilla, or that I said “shit”, “assholes”, and “fuck”? I don’t care. My. Mom. Doesn’t. Know. Who. I. Am. I don’t care if you’re offended by a statement or a word or my beliefs. If you are offended just click away and stop reading my posts.), feeling the church has tricked you by teaching an empty and faulty theology that life is peachy by saying a prayer and that God will fix and cure everything…

…but this song points to hope. Sometimes all we have is hope. 

The Hope…For Now…Until That Day

Hope is not a tangible replacement, honestly in a way it’s  just a mind-game and for some, maybe for me, a coping mechanism. It won’t bring my Mom’s mind and spirit back anytime soon. But what hope will allow is for me to imagine and dream of one day when heaven kisses earth and all things are redeemed/renewed, my boys will run up to their Mimi and give her the biggest hugs and she will have the biggest smile on her renewed mind and body as she hugs them back as she had always craved. Her spirit (and patience in raising me 😉 ) is one of never ending grace and loving kindness. 

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Hope.

Sometimes hope is all we have to cling to…and hope can be beautiful…for now…until that day.

Anyway, have a listen to the song and cling to hope…for now…until that day.

Please Lord, remember me when you walk in paradise. Please Lord, remember me, let me walk there by your side.

*I’ll have a post expounding a bit more on some of these topics in a couple days…maybe the post will just be cathartic for me but that’s ok with me. That’s mostly all of my writing anyways. There are so many things I don’t post but maybe I should for the sake of letting others know maybe what they’re feeling isn’t isolated to only themselves.

 

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Posted by on June 1, 2016 in theology, Uncategorized

 

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I’m Under Pressure…But God Is My Release Valve. (this title is tongue in cheek)

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There are a couple things that will get me fired up pretty quickly – racism and bad theology. This post is about bad theology…but don’t worry I have a post about racism in the works too…and it’s a doozy.

But first let’s focus on bad theology…

Too often we mis-interpret and then also re-interpret thoughts and passages in the Bible into a way that makes them more palatable to digest. We also like them to specifically apply to our own lives and to our own specific situations. When this happens we end up passing down a lot of God’s teachings as mis-truths. So then the bible turns into a collection of urban legends and we miss out on his beautiful truths that are present right in front of us.

Like today for example, I was reading an article about how people were trying to find Biblical truths regarding if being gluten-free was acceptable to God. So they were dissecting how Jesus said he is the bread of life, all the stories about unleavened bread, etc, etc.  So while they’re looking for evidence to vilify or verify their question they will completely overlook MUCH BIGGER truths contained in those passages. They are taking square peg truths and trying to make them fit into round peg individual experience holes. C’mon people – we have more important things to focus on.

I digress…

The meat of this post is focused on this next thought. Consider this…

“God will never give you more than you can handle.”

I’m sure you’ve heard this saying before. Yeah…it’s not in the Bible.

This is a complete bastardization of 1 Corinthians 10:13.

This thought is taken so far out of context as to what the scripture is actually talking about.

This verse is talking about temptation, not suffering (enduring more than we can handle). HUGE difference. We can control what we give into with temptations. We can not choose we suffer from. People use misuse this snippet of the passage and choose to proliferate christian life as all puppy dogs and unicorns, and that we can shrug off the hard times in our lives because God will wave his magic wand and make the “more than we can handle” disappear. It’s a pacifier, pat on the back for Christians. I will say that most of the time this phrase is said unintentional and innocently enough…and most of the time it’s meant to help people make feel better. But it’s wrong. It’s become one of those sayings that is said so often that people now automatically assume that is what is said and meant in the Bible. This is why we need to be careful about our theology.

For a MUCH better explanation of what I’m trying to say, go here – it’s an article on Relevant (the magazine) that talks about this issue specifically. They do a much more eloquent job of explaining the situation.

Now..a final quick, side-note indirectly related to the topic of this post. It’s just something to keep in mind since I love talking about the interplay of theology and living our lives…

This is from Zack Hunt’s post, Do Heretics Really Go To Hell?

In other words, Jesus doesn’t really seem to care much about our theological orthodoxy.

He seems to care a lot more about our orthopraxy, that is to say whether or not we actually lived our lives like he did.

Again, that’s not to say that ideas aren’t important. They are. But I don’t see anywhere in any of Jesus’ descriptions of the final judgement where he says or even implies that our salvation rests on agreeing to all the right doctrines.

Look, I love theology and I think good theology can lead to good living, just like bad theology can lead to bad living. But I’m convinced it’s the fruit of our theology – the way we live our lives and how we treat others – that determines the goodness of our theology, not whether or not our ideas adhere to a particular theological system.

 

 
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Posted by on December 17, 2013 in culture, theology

 

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